Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Cluttered

I carry lists in my head.

For quite a while they have been lists focused on really important stuff. What's God speaking into my heart? What does my family need? I carried what my staff needed, what my volunteers needed. I even carried thoughts on what could benefit my community. And of course ideas on world peace.

You know the big stuff.

It was a lot to carry around in my head. Even more for the weight it placed on my heart.

But I find myself with a bit of time to de-clutter. To unload. To lean on rather than necessarily be leaned upon. It's a bit disconcerting but not really in a bad way.

Wading through the quagmire, I find time to be quiet. To listen. To notice who sticks and who doesn't. To contemplate trust and confidence and truth.

And I find myself on the path to start different lists. Rows and lines of what God is whispering. What would comfort my family? Where do I perform at my highest potential? Who would I like to be around in work and leisure? How can I be as cool as one of my local heroes?

I know I have been given a gift - maybe in the form of a challenge - but a gift non-the-less. I noticed. No additional two by fours needed.

Oh and just for the record...world peace is still on the list.