I carry lists in my head.  
For quite a while they have been lists focused on really important stuff.  What's God speaking into my heart? What does my family need?  I carried what my staff needed, what my volunteers needed.  I even carried thoughts on what could benefit my community.  And of course ideas on world peace.  
You know the big stuff. 
It was a lot to carry around in my head.  Even more for the weight it placed on my heart.
But I find myself with a bit of time to de-clutter.  To unload.  To lean on rather than necessarily be leaned upon.  It's a bit disconcerting but not really in a bad way. 
Wading through the quagmire, I find time to be quiet.  To listen.  To notice who sticks and who doesn't. To contemplate trust and confidence and truth.
And I find myself on the path to start different lists.  Rows and lines of what God is whispering. What would comfort my family? Where do I perform at my highest potential? Who would I like to be around in work and leisure?  How can I be as cool as one of my local heroes?
I know I have been given a gift - maybe in the form of a challenge - but a gift non-the-less.  I noticed.  No additional two by fours needed.
Oh and just for the record...world peace is still on the list.
